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I move in tomorrow.  I've heard some people speak of the anxiety that they experience when moving away to college.  Away.  Away from home.  Away from the usual friends.  Off to find new friends along the road to glory, fame, or success.  But in my case, there's no anxiety.  No butterflies well up in my belly as I think of the next step I take into my life.  Instead, I feel ... plain.  I feel like I'm going into another natural stage in life, one that begs no second thought.  Will I feel different when I get to that stage?  Perhaps.

But home isn't far away for me.  I know of people leaving for far away places like New Jersey.  Even some places in Illinois are far from home.  For me, it's like I'm leaving for a camping trip in the backyard.  There's a level of excitement, and a number of unkowns, but fear is not among the emotions I harbor.  In a way, I've been too busy to think of a new experience at a new college, living with people I've never met before, or even living apart from people I've seen every day of my life.  It all seems like a fantasy now.  An alterreality that may or may not come true.  But in only a few hours, that reality will be upon me, and I have no idea how I will react.

There are things that I will miss though.  Things I already miss.  Aside from home and family, Mama's cooking, discussions of business, theological, or family matters, and my big screen tv, I'll miss the usual group of friends.  At Harper, I was with people I had known for years before college.  There were relationships that had already been established, and all we had to do was water them a little each day for them to grow into a truely close friendships.  I will miss those times of walking through halls or to wherever, and conversation with purpose and thought.  I'll miss those faces.  Those smiles, and laughs.  But every weekend, I'll have a slim opportunity to see them again.

I'll miss my computer too.

Well, don't feel sorry for me.  I have some friends at Elmhurst, and I intend to make new ones.  I'll also be working at the Dick's Sporting Goods at Lombard.  But that's another story for a different blog.